A Midnight Lesson on Trust | Devotion
Updated: Apr 25
I awoke to the sound of my mother’s voice outside my door. My dad, who had been sick for the past week, was having a hard time breathing and she was taking him into the hospital.
Panic and fear tried to set in, worst case thoughts hit me like a bombardment of arrows. I ran to my Love, knowing His perfect love casts out all fear (1 John 4:18). In that moment I cast every emotion on Him.
Casting all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you. (1 Peter 5:7)
I felt His peace wrap around me like a blanket as I sat in His presence.
I was alone, but I had Jesus, and He was enough.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. (1 John 14:27)
As His peace settled, something surprising hit me: conviction.
I was convicted about my attitude of prayer for all the other needs that had been brought to my attention over the week. Sure I prayed and I was genuine, but I did not seek the face of God as I did now. I could finally empathize with so many people, sickness had never touched our house like this before; I was getting a taste of what it must have been like for them. Hospital staff, and others were suddenly brought to the forefront of my mind, as I began to pray intentionally for everyone affected by sickness in the world.
Trials, whatever they may be, are never fun to walk through. But when we walk with Him we can know that all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. (Ro 8:28).
Something in me shifted as the spirit of intercession lifted. I felt like God was teaching me to walk though this trial differently.
Alright God, what do You want to show me in this?
This thread had been weaving its way in and out of my life, as it does in all our lives, and God was bringing it back to the forefront.
It’s easy to say “I trust God,” but unless this trust is tested is it even real?
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. (James 1:2-4)
What did Job say? Though He slay me, I will hope in Him. (Job 13:15)
And his response when his world came crashing down and he didn’t understand why God was allowing it?
WORSHIP (Job 1:20)
I know it seems odd friends, but worship through the trial, worship through the pain, worship in the uncertainty.
Look at how Philippians 4:6-7 pulls all of this together.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
I’ve prayed for healing all week long, and I will continue to do so. Scripture reminds us to pray and never give up (Luke 18:1), so don’t stop praying! I know He is a healer (Ps 41:3), and I’ve seen Him do it before, but right now God is allowing this.
So while I don’t have the healing that I’m seeking yet, I can tell you what my response will be:
I will trust in Him at all times (Ps 62:8) and His praise will continually be in my mouth (Ps 34:1)
Lord, I may not understand why You are having me walk this road, but I trust in You.
I will worship You and praise You through this trial, let thanksgiving be always upon my lips.
I know You hold all power and healing in Your hands, and I ask that You would intervene in my situation right now.
Teach me and grow me in this season.
I love You with all that I am,
Whatever you are going through, know that you are not alone in this season. David knew what it was like to learn how to trust in the Lord. He faced sickness, uncertainty, and many trials.
Open up the Psalms and read (or pray) his ancient prayers. Claim the promises you find there. Allow God to reveal Himself to you through His word. Still your soul and see what God wants to reveal to you in this season.